?

Scream, Shout, let my heart bleed, Can I please?

Nope, NO, don't do that, you can't; that's not the way we do things, No one wants to hear you scream, no one wants to see, No one wants to be there when you are you...

Do you wanna know WHY?

'Cause you are a loser, a poser, and just pathetic.

Why do you wanna show the world WHO you are; WHAT you are?

A sweet nice guy? No, that's not who I am. A calculative bastard? No, I suppose not. A sociopath with a heart as dark as the abyss? God, I hope not.

So who am I?

Accept your life is not some Legendary Arc, not some fantasy or a fairy tale. It's just a plain, boring, simple life.

A life that you are not even in control of.

I suppose, so why is my vision blurry, my eyes hollow, my throat parched, and pain in my chest so excruciating; like someone punched my heart and broke it into a thousand pieces and jammed them into my body so much that it hurt.

It hurts every time I move, every time it beats and pumps blood, every time I try to feel.

I know better, that's why I bottled up my feelings and swept them under the rug.

So, then why do I feel like someone punched me in the gut, that something is pulling my words down my throat, every time I try to open up the bottle.

Unable to say anything I just gasp for breath, I gasp & gasp & heave but nothing. Nothing but air comes out.

So, I sigh, I sigh and swallowed everything down; and here comes the pain again.

So please, please PLEASE let me scream, let me cry, let my heart bleed.

So I can finally put myself out of this never ending misery of a life which feels like a Question Mark.?